Radio Silence

As you may have noticed, there hasn’t been a new Pen Habit blog or video posted for over a month now. I have had several people reach out to me to make sure I’m doing well, and to inquire about when the next video will be released. I figured I should, at the very least, drop a quick note on the blog to let everyone know that I’m still alive.

As for when my next video will be coming out? It won’t. I have decided, after a lot of consideration, that I will be taking an extended, and possibly permanent, hiatus from creating any more fountain pen review videos.  This decision was not an easy one to make, particularly in light of the many wonderful people I’ve met, and the scores of notes I’ve gotten from people thanking me for introducing or re-introducing them to the fountain pen hobby.

After posting my last video, I realized something: In the course of building The Pen Habit and making dozens of videos, fountain pens have turned from a hobby into an obligation. Every 15 minute video was taking up hours of time as I set up and took down my equipment, filmed the raw footage, took still photos of the pen, color corrected the video, mastered the audio, edited the product, and wrote the accompanying blog posts. Since it stopped being fun, and I’m not getting paid to do it, I began to wonder why I was continuing to do.

I dedicated nearly every weekend of what ended up being a beautiful summer inside the house working on reviews. I began turning down opportunities to be social or interact with others because, “I have to get my next pen video edited.” At one point, I had gone over a month without doing dishes, laundry, or vacuuming up the dog hair tumbleweeds floating around my house: I was too busy juggling a full-time job, freelance work as an audiobook narrator, recording and editing pen videos, writing music, running errands, and trying to maintain my new yard. And that was before I started my new food and exercise regimen to lose the 45+ pounds I’ve gained in the last several years. I even have a stack of letters nearly two and a half months old that still require responses.

One of my many human shortcomings is that I dive into my interests hard and heavy. My fascination burns bright, but also burns out quickly. And, by the end of August, I was burned out. I had spent countless hours trolling forums, YouTube videos, and pen sites gathering as much knowledge as possible. In my first 18 months of using fountain pens, I believe I spent somewhere in the range of $13,000-$15,000 of my own money on pens, ink, and paper. It was money I really couldn’t afford to spend: thousands of dollars of credit card purchases on cards with exorbitant interest rates, money that should have been put into emergency funds and retirement accounts, and money that should have been re-invested in my business ventures. Instead, my pen purchases often got put ahead of my monthly bills, which is STUPID.

I was spending money on pens and ink I knew I wasn’t going to like, because acquiring was the most important thing, and because people kept asking for reviews of particular pens. My pen wallet was constantly full of inked pens I didn’t like and would never use again, simply so I could review them. The pens in my collection I did love, I never got to use because I was too busy reviewing pens I didn’t like.

(A warning: if you don’t like strong language, you should probably just skip to the last couple of paragraphs…)

Being a content creator is a tricky thing. To do it well, and to build a community around your content, requires a lot of work. You have to pour yourself into it. There’s no doubt I did that. I worked my ass off on these videos. I gave it away for free. I made a pittance in YouTube revenues. And then, after dedicating so much time to my videos, I would wake up the morning after I posted a new video only to find things like this posted on my account…all of which, I might add are or were real comments:

  • Dude, no offense, but why are you so bald?
  • This channel is nothing more than a ripoff of SBREBrown, only with more boring content.
  • Well, if you didn’t like the pen, why did you buy it?
  • You don’t know what you’re talking about.
  • Fuck, this was a fuckin waste of my time.
  • I don’t like the new introduction. I liked the old one better.
  • Well actually, ____________________

Here’s the thing: I fucking HATE YouTube comments. HATE THEM.  I hate comment sections on the internet more than I hate mayonnaise. And I HATE mayonnaise. (Seriously. I don’t understand how anyone eats mayonnaise on purpose. Spew.) This is how much I hate YouTube Comments:

I really don’t give a flying fuck whether or not you like the introduction on my videos. You’re really going to nitpick over the color of the font used in a six second introduction. THAT is what you have to contribute to the conversation? You’re welcome to spend the money to hire a professional After Effects editor and a professional composer to make an introduction that more suitable to you. Until then, you’re just going to have to deal with the six seconds of video and audio that took me seven hours to make as it is.

I really don’t give a rat’s ass if you think I’m boring, and you don’t like my content. I don’t like your existence, and often wish that you, anonymous user who has never created a YouTube video of your own, would simply be put out of my misery.

I couldn’t possibly care less if you think I ripped off SBREBrown. You know what?  I did! In the same way that he ripped off Brian Goulet. It’s actually called “being inspired” by someone. If you were capable of doing anything productive in society, you’d realize that all people who create do it on the inspiration of those who have come before.

I have better things to do with my life than delete the mean-spirited, asinine ravings of a gaggle of idiotic twatwaffles who want nothing more out of life than to shit on my investment of hundreds of hours and thousands of dollars.

(I’m well aware of the hypocrisy of complaining about these jackwad YouTube commenters while, at the same time, I was crapping on fountain pens I didn’t like. I was, in many ways, doing the exact same thing that was being done to me, so I have no room to complain.)

TL;DR: I need to take a break from fountain pen review videos. I need to learn how to relax and not load every spare minute of my day with projects. I do not have the self-confidence and emotional fortitude to deal with internet commenters in a healthy way. My finances can’t hold up under the weight of pen acquisition. My personal life, such as it is, is suffering due to the extreme amounts of time I am putting into these videos.

Will I make more?  Perhaps. But it won’t be for a while. First, I’m going to dedicate myself to paying off the credit card debt I acquired buying all these pens. (Keep an eye on FB or Twitter for announcements of pens for sale.) If and when I do start making pen videos again, I’ll do things differently. I’ll approach my reviews from a more positive standpoint, championing those pens I really like rather than doing reviews of any pen that crosses my desk. I’ll do them in a more simple manner, requiring far less manual work on my part. I may try to find some folks who are interested in helping me put them together rather than doing it myself. And you can be damn sure, no matter what else I do, I’ll be turning OFF YouTube comments.

For the many, many folks who have been wonderful and supportive, thank you from the bottom of my heart. Your support is what made this decision to take a break from doing these videos so difficult. There are many great and wonderful voices in the pen community who are starting their own channels and making their own videos, and I’m all for it. If you’re subscribed or follow the Pen Habit on social media, you can continue to do so. When I have recouperated from this whirlwind, and figured out what place I want to occupy in the world of fountain pens, I’ll be sure to announce it here/there.

Until then, best wishes!

Matt Armstrong

  • Akshay Gajria

    For the record, I loved your video. You had a finesse that few other’s had. I’ll miss the honesty of opinion you showed for the pen whether they were well loved or not.

  • Aleks Gutiérrez

    sorry to hear that friend; we miss you already 🙂

  • Rafael Moreno

    It’s a pitty. I’ve just started watching your reviews and I love them. But I understand you.

    Thanks and I wish you all the best.

    Rafael Moreno – From Spain (Europe)

  • Terry

    Hi Matt
    Your videos were great and informative. It’s ashame there are so many dickheads in this world.
    I will miss your reviews but you must come first. All the best for the future. Terry

  • Tas

    “Every man must decide for himself whether he shall master his world or be mastered by it” – s you once wrote. Matt, I wish you all the very best. I will miss your honesty and thoroughness.
    Take it easy, and good luck with those credit card bills.

  • Sorry to hear you won’t be doing more videos, I enjoyed them, found them informative and will miss them. Unfortunately it’s understandable why you stopped. It’s hard to ignore the Youtube trolls.

  • David Johnson

    You are a smart guy. I know that you’ll find other projects that you can pour your considerable talent and energy into in a more sustainable way. You already told us that you hate internet comments, but at least this is one way people can let you know that they appreciate your efforts. I’ll miss your reviews but wish you well.

  • Ryan E

    Sad to see you go, but glad in that you’re making a well informed choice based on the factors you have enumerated. Good luck in your new endeavors!

  • southernmost

    Haters gonna hate. It’s an Internet truism. I wish you luck selling off the pens you don’t like, and hope you get to spend more quality writing time with the ones you do.

  • Anna

    I’m not going to lie. I didn’t watch your videos, since I always read your blog while I’m at work, and I think people would be suspicious of my watching YouTube when I’m supposed to be working. However, I found the information in your written reviews very valuable, and your photography of the pens was great! I’m sorry about the haters. There will always be some and they are impossible to stop. But it sounds like you are making a very responsible decision, and I definitely respect that. Go live your life! If, after a while, you want to talk to us about pens (even in a different, less time-consuming way), I’m sure many of us will still be here to listen! Thank you for the time you’ve put in!

  • Thank you all for the kind words of support. It does mean a lot. Hopefully some time off will do me good, and give me time to think up ways of being involved in a healthier way. 🙂

  • I’m really sorry to hear that the videos have taken such a negative toll on your life. I hope things work out for you, and if you decide to return to making videos, you can be sure I’ll be watching!

  • carl thomas

    Came here from Reddit. Never saw your videos. By the looks of your writing quality they were probably pretty good.

    My $.02, sell everything on eBay. Put the money into your debt. You may lose money but not as much as letting a pen you don’t like sit in your drawer.

    Scratch the video itch by recording your original songs, or teach songwriting, or yardwork or something fun.

    Go have fun.

  • Bec Mortensen

    I watched a few videos and always really enjoyed your work! It’s always sad to see rude people on the internet ruining everyone’s mood. Hiding behind a screen and being cruel is so low. I also very much understand the expense of the hobby, and I hope you can recoup a lot by selling the pens! I hope you decide to come back to the hobby, perhaps just with showing off the different things you do with your favorite pens, because your blog has always been one of my favorites (much more so than one of the people who inspired you). I would also personally love to see reviews focusing on inexpensive pens (sub $30), particularly with someone of your expertise with the much more expensive brands!

  • Keith McCleary

    Matt, I understand what you’re saying, and I wish you the best, sir. I enjoyed what you did.

    Slightly off topic, you win the internet today with your comment:

    “I have better things to do with my life than delete the mean-spirited,
    asinine ravings of a gaggle of idiotic twatwaffles …”

    I snorted coffee out of my nose when I made it to idiotic twatwaffles.

    Keep your sense of humor as best you can, and get some rest.

  • TJ Zidaroff

    I completely understand your backing away. In the same token, I am sad. I really like your videos and find myself referring to them when contemplating a pen purchase. Critics come from all areas of life, mostly from the basement of their mom’s house where they are living. How they can type and eat Cheetos at the same time boggles the imagination. Ignore them. In the meantime, know that your videos were much appreciated by this long time viewer. God speed and God bless in your life.

  • Gadzinisko

    I haven’t ever commented on your videos despite watching and enjoying many of them… But I want to say basically three things.

    First, good luck in your life, whether you come back to making videos or you don’t. It’s your choice, your real fans will let you decide.
    Second, sell the pens you don’t like, that’s obvious. If you don’t like them, why keep them. And in the future, it might be a good idea to borrow pens from your fans for reviews?
    Third, ignore the trolls and haters. Seriously, don’t take them seriously, don’t respond to them, as it’s a waste of time. EVERY semi-popular youtube channel will get haters and as we learned, internet is full of people saying mean things, because they feel anonymous here. Really, ignore them, responding to them is a waste of time.

    Once again, good luck with your life!

  • John Marsden

    I enjoyed your videos Matt and this is one of the best blogs I have ever read. Your reasons for having a rest are pretty convincing. Good luck and thank you for the reviews.

  • Dylan Keefe

    I’m sorry to hear that you’re suspending reviews, however; I think that, as a fountain pen lover, one of the worst things that I can see is when someone starts losing the joy that they initially had with the discovery of this amazing hobby, and begins to dislike, or even actively avoid, the thing they loved so much. I believe I speak for your fans when I say that we want what is best for you. We want you, the person who is sacrificing his time and effort (not to mention money) to put out free content for us to enjoy without any effort at all, to be the happiest of us all. Take all the time you need, and remember: whenever you feel like coming back to the pen review scene, we’ll be waiting with open arms.

  • Rob

    I see you’re not a fan of comments but I’m hoping you will read this one. I enjoyed all of your pen reviews and found them immensely helpful in building my own collection. That said, I can understand why you need to take a step back. Anytime a person decides to put themselves out in front of an audience and perform there are always difficulties — many times we just don’t notice them until it’s too late. The good thing is that you have made a healthy decision and that you have the time and health to rectify the situation.

    However, if you do decide to go back to making videos one day I hope you leave the comment section open. There will undoubtedly be assholes that make stupid comments but I think all comments should be seen in perspective. For instance, those that commented on your introduction probably weren’t doing it to be rude but rather to show their loyalty to your channel. If they knew about the old intro they must be long time viewers!! Keep the communication channel open so that your true fans still have the opportunity to voice their thoughts on yours. Finally, please don’t make all positive reviews — god that would be boring!! You’re an individual with your own thoughts and opinions and I valued that immensely in watching your videos.

    Anyway, I wish you the best and I want to thank you for the contribution you have given to us “pen enthusiasts”. I will be on the lookout for your pen sales and I hope I can help to lighten the load a bit.

  • Lee Munro

    Ah Matt, who can blame you? YouTube commenters are the shallow end of the gene pool since the demise of Yahoo Chat.

    I’m sure you’ll be back reviewing in time. Meanwhile, take a rest from it and enjoy your days. And, use the pens that you like! Bless, my friend.

  • dan

    Sad, really really sad, but one have to accept that this is an addiction.

  • Felix Kang

    Compare with others, I feel that your videos are much more quality than others. Thanks for your hard working. It’s time for you to enjoy your life, as a fountain pen user, I hope can watch more video from you. Hope you can come back soon.

  • natsora

    I am sorry to hear about this but I totally understand. I hope you can work out a way to have a sustainable relationship with fountain pens some day. Wishing you all the best in everything you choose to do, Junee (Alt. Haven)

  • Waski_the_Squirrel

    I enjoyed your high quality videos. I got into reviewing this summer, and you inspired me to improve my quality beyond just a laptop camera.

    But, I agree about balance and I hope I can learn from your experience, especially about the time management. Reviews are fun, but I want to write with the pen more than anything. For me: when I run out of pens, the reviews are done.

    Hopefully you can find a way to use the talent and knowledge you got from pen reviewing in another venue because you are good in front of the camera.

  • DELively

    I’ll miss your video reviews, even though not seeing them means my bank account will be more full. I liked your style and the professionalism you put into each video. I also like the fact you never did silly accents or put a lobster on shoulder.

  • Ram

    Matt, That’s very unfortunate that I’ll be missing your super reviews! I love what you are doing and I’m a follower of your music as well! I’m reminded of my favourite song of yours ‘I’m moving on’. But I am sure you understand that you have a lot of people who like your reviews.
    It’s your decision, but I’d like to see you back soon buddy.

  • Daniel Loorbach

    Take care! Enjoy live without obsessions. You don’t need the approval of strangers anyway.

  • Greg Siragusa

    Remember, as one old Scout to another, the Scout Law is not just in how you treat others, it is also directed at yourself. Be kind to others but always be kind to yourself. Take it easy and regroup; life’s good!

    I did like your videos, and anyone could see they were a notch above most posted vids in their quality (several notches actually).

  • pajhurley

    Matt,
    Thanks so much for putting yourself out there in posting your excellent videos and pen reviews. I understand how this pen hobby can take over your life and bank account. I started collecting about two years ago and for 18 months I was buying at least one fountain pen a week; just too experience what it was like to have a Pelikan M800 with a gold nib, an Edison Signature custom or Montblanc 149. One cannot keep up that pace (and have any hope of a viable retirement in the years ahead). I have also recorded videos of my pens, but have only had the guts to share them with another pen friend. The time and effort that goes into creating, simple editing and uploading to YouTube is monumental.
    In short, I applaud your work and will miss your reviews and videos.
    I hope you can go back to simply enjoying your pens and bringing balance back to your life (for me, I am not yet ready to sell the clunkers that I have acquired along with the classics – some time soon, hopefully).
    Again, thank you.

  • Rikesh Patel

    MATT DON’T GIVE UP!!! You make great videos with great production value! Please keep making your wonderful videos! I’ll be looking forward to your next video!

  • Craig Nelson

    Matt, I’ve really enjoyed your pen reviews,I’m so sorry to hear that you’ve decided to stop your reviews. Please take some time to think about the few bad people,and rember that the majority of us really enjoy your reviews.

    Craig Nelson

  • Appreciative fan

    Matt

    I am very sorry you have made this decision. Your videos were one of the top three youtube channels I look forward to every week. I thought you had a great way of talking about the pens you reviews. I hope you’d get over the what the trolls have said and continued to enlighten us with your unique point of view.

  • Nathaniel

    Best of luck, Matt. For what it’s worth, I really enjoyed your videos and all your other hard work.

  • John

    Like so many others, I also enjoyed your videos. I thought they were really well done and liked the different intros. Hopefully you can find some balance in your life and perhaps someday you can come back to reviewing fountain pens!

    Thanks for all of your hard work on the videos that are out there already!

  • Eugenio

    Hi Matt, I really hope you will reconsider your decision. Your videos are great, very well done and very informative. I totally understand you, but as a fountain pen lover it is just sad to know that I might not see a new Pen Habit video again.

  • Akin

    Hi Matt,

    I am deeply saddened to hear that you have decided to take a hiatus from doing pen reviews. I am one of the many people who are always looking forward to your reviews. We really appreciate the amazing production quality and your attention to details (and also the cool t-shirts).

    We can understand where you’re coming from with the mounting expenses associated with acquiring them. (But I guess there are worse vices.) Cherry-picking ones which you love will definitely help in terms of time and money management. But as far as internet trolls are concerned, unfortunately there’s nothing much you can do to avoid them. It’s just a fact of life in the internet age, I’m afraid. But as Stephen Brown said, the majority of people in the fountain pen community are super nice.

    In the end, of course it’s your own decision to make. It will give us an immense pleasure to watch your videos again someday. In the mean time, thank you for all the wonderful reviews you have done. And remember, don’t let the bastards get you down!

    Akin

  • Mike Beale

    Great fan of your videos Matt. I have purchased pens off the back of your reviews. Such a shame to hear about all the trolls. I know you love to write quotes, here is one for you…
    ““It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better. The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.” Theodore Roosevelt.

  • Muhammad Firdaus Bin Raja Ali

    Hey Matt, hope you’re doing more videos soon! I heard about this from Stephen Brown’s video. You could sell the pens you don’t like to the online community. You’re an honest reviewer and not one sided. Ignore the cheap dickheads. You’ve spent your money on pens you don’t like and at least they could do is to give you basic respect but I guess it has already been taken care off. Keep it up and I really support your hard work!

    All the best,
    Muhammad Firdaus (Singapore)

  • Chris

    Your video quality was amazing and I thoroughly enjoyed the videos I have watched. Thank you for your contributions to the FP community.

  • Tommy Tracy II

    Excellent reviews, Matt! Don’t pay attention to the waffles; you’ve definitely served as inspiration for my collection.

  • Alex

    Sir, you have made some valiant decisions. Your analysis was very thoughtful. I hope one day after you have reorganized and settled your thinking that you will again share your info on pens with your many pen friends. You are appreciated.

  • Gareth

    Matt, Loved your no nonsense, high quality reviews. Really hope to see you back soon!

  • Asif

    Hey Matt, just wanted to say that I appreciated all the work you put into the fountain pen reviews, they were great and informative. I really liked your reviews! All the best!

  • kevinmigdal

    Hello Matt,

    I just wanted to let you know, as someone that probably is one of the vast silent majority, that the work you have done is very much appreciated by me. I just watched Steven Brown’s video directed to you and I totally agree with him. When you put yourself out there on the net you will get some very strange replies from some very strange people. I only regret that I have not let you know how much I enjoyed your very hard work until now. Be very well my friend!!

  • Thomas

    For the record, I enjoyed your videos and found them thorough, informative and entertaining! Thanks for the time and effort you put into the whole Pen Habit!

  • pierremeu

    I didn’t realized Matt that you stopped making videos. I saw the video on the channel of sbrebrown about you and I was deeply sorry. Your videos are very interesting, very informative, very well done and fun to watch. So i will miss you a great deal. If it is too much work perhaps you should do videos less often without stopping everything. I really hope that you will change your mind. Bye Matt.

  • kate

    I’ve watched all your videos yet I’ve never posted a comment here or on your videos. Watching SBRE’s video made me realize that if the kind ones remain silent it only allows trolls to be given more attention than they’re worth. I wished I would have told you this sooner, but I LOVED your videos and really admired the obvious effort you put into them. Me and many others I’m sure will be thrilled for if and when you finally come back. Take care!

  • Lorena P.

    As I mentioned in a different channel we respect your decision, thank you for your great work and contributions so useful for many of us. You have two great reasons to make a pause improve your helth and clean up your debt. When you figure out which pens and inks you plan to sell let us know.

    Good luck
    LorenDPG from Mexico

  • Regid99

    It is sad but I understand. You did nice reviews, very good images and sound. I don’t understand some people, if they don’t like it, they just have to stop watching. I hope you will still enjoy using FP, even if you don’t do reviews again. Take care

  • TimRox

    Matt, please don’t stop making videos!! You’re one of my favorite fountain pen reviewers, I really like your videos, they’re always to the point, very useful, neat and fun to watch. I usually watch them together with my husband and we’re both enjoying them a lot. Actually it’s because of you and Stephen Brown that we bought new pens over the past year and usually if we see something we’d like to buy, we always check your reviews before doing so.
    I know it’s not much, but I hope it will make you feel better. There will always be jackasses who will say really mean words, words that literally hurt, but that’s because it’s all they are mentally capable of and that reflects poorly on them, not on you.. (’cause you’re great, by the way)
    I really hope you feel better, clear up things in your life and then come back (soon), because you really make a difference and we’ll all be missing you a lot..

    All the best to you,
    Roxana

  • Jan Dryk

    Yo dawg, thats a lot of thinking about people that don’t think. I appreciate your videos much more than sbrebrowns because of the production value. Pls keep them coming <3

  • MGT

    Hi Matt. I really appreciate your videos. They have the best production out there. Your reviews, alike SBREBrown and Brian Goulet, are of great value to me, I really apreciate them. Every day when I’m relaxing at home I search your channel, and the ones that I’have mentioned, for some new and interesting reviews. I will miss yours for sure. Take care hope you will be back soon.

  • Rui Almeida

    Matt I’m so sad to see you go.

    I want to thank you all your work , it was great to follow you channel.

    Please dont let some idiots to destroy all your wonderful work.

    Thanks and I wish you all the best.

    Regards

  • Suvir Sinha

    Matt,
    First off I am so glad your videos haven’t stopped because you are having any medical problems. At the same time, however, I must say that what those people said is awful. I have missed you over the last month and have been waiting for videos anxiously. And leaving is your decision, but you are one of the people who got me into pens. YOU have sparked interest in me. People are going to say what they will say, but they can only bother you if you let them. You have contributed to the Fountain Pen universe. They have not. So what ever they say cannot hold water because they haven’t done what you have done. Again the choice is yours, but quitting will be declaring your defeat to the haters.

    -Love your videos
    -Suvir Sinha

  • fromthecrowd

    Take a rest indeed. And we’ll be waiting for your brilliant reviews when you are ready.

  • Mexican Dude

    For what its worth, I find your reviews and videos quite useful and educative. I dont share your opinion on pens like the pilot mr or similar priced pens, I really like inexpensive pens; however it would be a shame that the trolls get the better of you. Dont let them. Your channel on youtube is very well respected and has an astounding amount of work and production value.

    I would enjoy very much to watch future reviews of inexpensive pens, that is, of course if you decide to continue with you reviews and channel.

    My regards to you form Mexico.

  • Greg Siragusa

    BTW, I forgot,to add in my earlier post, would love it if after a well deserved rest you were back reviewing FPs.

  • Rafael Pappalardo

    I’m shock after reading your post. For us it’s too easy. Just to press play and relax watching your videos. Now I feel sad about your financial troubles. I have profited from your videos without returning anything to you. Be sure you’ll be missed. Thanks a lot for all the good moments. Best wishes,
    Rafael

  • Bruce Allison

    Matt, sorry to hear you are having such a hard time. One thing I learned early on with the internet, is that people abuse their anonymity.

    As many have already said, I genuinely enjoyed your videos. You are VERY informative, your production value was fantastic. I hope you decide to come back, and I promise to never bitch about your intro’s :). Be well and take the break you deserve.

  • Jack

    All that work and dedication really paid off, Matt–videos and videographer, each a class act. I like and value educators (like you) and if I can be educated, impressed and entertained all in one, all the better. Thank you.
    PS: superlative rant…!

  • Msresinhead

    So saddened to hear that you are leaving YouTube, but totally understand. You shouldn’t have to endure those negative comments. What a waste of time – it’s easier to just not watch, rather than purposely being cruel to another person for no reason at all. How rude and a waste of time.
    I’ll miss your honesty Matt. I quite enjoy your reviews and videos. You are very much admired by this fellow pen nerd from Australia. All the best.

  • RonB

    Will miss your videos! Hope you reconsider and come back! sbrebrown summed it up best at the end of his video. Sad how a little anonymity on the Internet for some gives them a rush of power in their meaningless pathetic lives to put down others who are working hard.

  • Ken F

    Matt – relax. You need to know there are waaaayyyyy more people out here who appreciate you and your hard work than a few idiots who don’t contribute to anything at anytime. You are providing a service that educates those new into fountain pens, to understand which end is up and how to find what’s right for them. Without guys like you, taking hours to prepare a video and then putting it out there for all to see, it’s difficult to find real information on the topic.
    Bummer on the finances, but I truly understand. It happens. I’m sure you will recover in time.
    Take your time to regroup – and re-attack if you it’s what you really want to do. We appreciate your videos, hard work, and dedication.
    Be glad to see you if you choose to produce more.

  • A.Arndts

    You do realize that you can disable comments Plus ban and delete them too a cool method of revenge as I look at it… narrow minded people who don’t have anything better to do other than bettering themselves. So their only outlet is to attempt to bring down others… F*BLEEEEEEEP*K them. As the saying goes a$$holes will be a$$holes. Don’t let “A few bad apples spoil the lunch” -SBREBrown. Yet, Never hurts to take a break. Don’t cost nuttin’ well perhaps a cool pen or two 😉 Hurry Back and Disable the comments.

  • Ari

    I’m sorry to hear you’ll be taking a break. I completely understand your reasoning for doing this, but I will still miss your videos. They were original, entertaining and wonderfully produced. If you ever make any more, you can bet I will watch them. Good luck with everything in your future and I wish you the best in life

  • The Tigershark

    Matt, I loved your reviews and energy you bring to them. Always looked forward to a new upload. I agree with you about the reviews. I only review pens I love. To me, what the hell is the point for me to spend money on something I don’t like. But I get the addiction and why you were going in the direction you were. Anyway, definitely turn off comments, and hopefully we’ll see you again, bro. Cheers!

    Doug

  • Kiwi.Aust

    Matt,
    I wish you the best for the future, whatever you decide to do. I have watched, yourself, Brian Goulet and Stephen Brown to develop my knowledge of fountain pens, and for that matter, bottled ink. You have been informative and I certainly appreciated your efforts.

    Thank you

    RS

  • Jeremy Evans

    Hi Matt, this is just a short message of appreciation and support. I have utter respect for your deciding to take a break but I am seething that your reviews, which I regard as intelligent, informative and entertaining are to be denied to the many who delight in them because of the poison of the mindless few. I want to speed you back and I have decided to, in my small way, share a bit of load. Tomorrow is London writing equipment show day, and I promise to make a video of anything I come home with from there. I know it won’t be as slick and polished as yours but I’ll think of it as an Homage. I would like to encourage others to do the same. Let’s show Matt some solidarity!

  • Mark.us

    I just noticed this blogentry because of sbrebrowns video. I only follow your youtube channel so i didn’t know that you stopped making videos alltogether. I enjoyed them very much. I myself only got into the hobby recently and it was nice to follow someone along who also just started. I find your videos very informative and the production value of your channel is very high and it shows. I also don’t think that you are a rip off because even if you review the same pens as others it is useful to get different viewpoints on a subject. I would like to see your videos again in the future but of course i understand that you want to bring your time management and finances into order. So i hope that you find a way to continue and to ignore the trolls.

  • Terumi

    Matt, I just watched Stephen Brown’s video and came right over to your web page. I just recently watched most, if not all your videos. Yep, I binge watched them, too. Because I just started watching, I didn’t know what you posting schedule was like. Much to my surprise I saw SBRE talking about and to you. I’m super bummed that you may stop reviews permanently but I completely understand why. Stupid gits. Anyways, enjoy the pens and ink that you do love. Come back when you can.

  • Mags

    Matt you come back to the videos when you are good and ready. I enjoyed them and after watching them would say to myself how the hell do you do all this. What I did not say enough was thank you. I am thinking back and most of my comments are positive but after reading your blog….not positive enough.

    I tell you this. I really enjoyed FPGeek videos and eventually met Dan. We are not close friends but we have shared some laughs at a pen show and friendships grow. In part these comments are a way good people reach out and become friends, or like you and Stephen become colleagues. Ignore the negative and rude commentaries and share your next video in due time.

    Take care and enjoy your fountain pens. Enjoy your backyard, family, friends and health and your pets. Lookin forward to meeting you one day at a pen show to compare and exchange thoughts on a simple past time. Be well and recharge.

  • shock

    Don’t take those spammers words seriously. and thank you so much for all of your effort. I didn’t know how much time/effort/money/etc you spent on those wonderful videos until I read this.

    Take your time and I’m hoping you to come back. again, Thank you so much.

  • Michelle y

    Sorry you received so many aggravatingly rude and mean comments. You created some really polished and thoughtful review videos that I appreciated. Hope you come back in some form but if not completely understand why not.

  • Manan Doshi

    Well matt… I was waiting and waiting for your new video to come and then i find this.. And this is disappointing… I got in to this hobby by watching your videos and to end it like this is undeserving.. Your videos were by far the best… Reviewing is always like telling what you think about something… It like when a reviewer reviews a movie he always says what he thinks and not what people want to hear…. So if people dont like what u say they should stop following you rather than cursing you… But in the end people just do what they have to so best is think about people who matter… People whom u have inspired and who wait long for your reviews not of pens you like but of all the pens you review….if it matters consider your decision because there are a lot of people who do care and love your videos…but we respect your decision and will eagerly wait for your next video..

  • Oldgoatskc

    Thank you Matt. You put yourself out there for the vast majority of us to enjoy and appreciate. I always love watching someone do something well, and you sir are a master. Fare winds and following seas to you!

  • Pascal Leers

    Hi Matt. Thanks you for introducing me into the world of fountain pens. I enjoyed your video’s a lot. And I will miss them. Enjoy your well deserved break. Hoping to from you again. At least in your blog again,someday. Wishing you all the best.

  • I’ve just listened to your latest song on youtube and if your pen blogs were stopping that, take a break! It was magic! If you get the urge again, we will welcome you back with open arms (and maybe send you our pens to review so you don’t have to buy them). Keep writing, singing, loving – but always because you enjoy it!

  • Ralph

    Matt, whatever some Nerf-herders think or say, pls don’t dwell on their Bantha poodoo. So many more people like myself love what you did and that simply outnumbers those infantile comments by far. We understand you need a break however hope and look forward welcoming you back and do appreciate your reviews on FP. All the best and keep on reviewing (and writing of course)…a fan from Germany.

  • Alex Hackmann

    Matt,

    I’ve missed your videos. I just knew about your hiatus…

    You know what? CONGRATULATIONS for you courage, for taking this decision. I admire you even more.

    Sincerely,
    Alex Hackmann

  • Ricardo Silva

    Don’t stop please… It will be a big loss for the world wide fountain pen community.

    Keep up Matt! You’r the man =)

    P.S. A lot of my knowledge about fountain pens came from your videos.
    Ricardo Silva (PORTUGAL)

  • Jeff Aman

    Matt, I have several things I want to say. I was a regular follower and did wonder what happened, hoped you were OK and had just gone on vacation. First, I have GREATLY enjoyed your pen reviews, and you DO have your own unique and professional style of reviewing pens. It is not like SBRE Brown or Brian Goulet, both of whom I appreciate as well. But yours are all personal to you, very “precise” and professional, and very well produced. I relished the one where you shared your studio, and it was very well done. Second, don’t let the negative “jerks” who comment affect your decision whatever. There are many, many people like myself who greatly enjoy them. Please don’t let that be factor in your thinking as to whether to continue. As Stephen said in his video in support of you, there will always be stupid, punkish people out there whose opinion counts for 0. Third, I can certainly understand and relate to the time involved in producing content, especially doing it with the professionalism and quality that you set as a standard and that we all benefited from. Of course, the time commitment, and the financial issues would tend to give you pause about the work. And it is work. I started a legal podcast and have been on a several months hiatus after only 3 episodes! So only you can weigh all this in your personal life and decide whether to do more pen reviews. But I assure you if you do, I will continue to be a loyal and appreciative fan. – Jeff

  • Patrick

    I have never commented on your video but i wanna take a second to let you know that i appreciate your videos a lot. every time i get a new notification that you’ve posted a video, i get excited like a child on the morning of christmas. Its sad to see you leave. I appreciate your content and love your video.

  • klim

    Matt, you are the man. Your passion for high quality audio and video production as well as your infectious enthusiasm for fine writing instruments will truly be missed. We all hope you decide to come back, but you have to do what is best for you. At the end of the day you have your life to live and only you can choose how to live it.

  • mm

    Matt, I was really sorry to learn about your intention to take a possibly permanent break from your video reviews. The work you did was just wonderful, beautiful, insightful. I completely understand the pressure you began to feel, the feeling of sacrificing important parts of your life for the pen reviews. You have all my sympathy.

    What really gets me is the fact that a few bad apples with their stupid comments may have pushed you to stop doing the reviews. If that’s the case, please reconsider.

    I wonder, is there any way to sacrifice the production value of your videos in order to take less time to perfect them? Your videos would still be great and would have a large following. What really matters is your insight, your style – that wouldn’t be sacrificed.

    I hope you reconsider…. but either way, thank you, thank you for your work.

    mm

  • Gareth Crossland

    Hi Matt, your vids were always of such high quality and very interesting to watch. As the saying goes: Don’t let the bastards grind you down. Everyone is entitled to their own opinion. The problem is when these bastards think we’re entitled to their opinoin too.

    Good luck for the future Matt, and we’ll all be here watching and waiting for your next video.

  • Gabe Logan

    In response to the negative comments you received: I have become a user of fountain pens and have appreciated and benefited from your work on the topic. There are many dangers when making ourselves vulnerable to the public domain, and therefore public opinion. Often it is the courageous among us who choose to do so. The negative comments you received serve only to show the ignorance and inadequacy of others.

    You have contributed to something of value in what you have done. The written word is arguably the greatest achievement of humanity. Celebrating the art of writing is in a very real way celebrating something beautiful. Those who celebrate such things are often criticized by the ignorant, but they are remembered by the great.

    Sincerely,

    Gabe Logan

  • Technoinfidel

    I for one have very much enjoyed what you have created. Your enthusiasm and passion come through in the final product, and I will miss seeing new material. But life is too short to put energy and resources into something that no longer brings you joy. I hope that after a time you will drawn back to continuing your creative expression. For now, thank you very much for what you’ve contributed to the FP community, and I wish you the very best.

  • Enrique Herrera

    If you weren’t enjoying making reviews anymore, then this decision is right. Although I hope to watch and read you soon… Best wishes from Mexico City!

  • Dave P

    Matt, it really looks like you need a break. The jerks that comment are one thing but when you’re life is suffering to “the pen habit” (so appropriately named), it is time to regroup. After all, it is a hobby you should enjoy and not become enslaved to. I would to see you return, but more importantly I would like you to enjoy the hobby again. If making new videos becomes fun again, I will look forward to them. If not, I just hope that you can continue to enjoy pens and the rest of your life in harmony. It is time to look out for number 1. The rest of us will be fine.

  • José Ignacio Silva

    I hope that you come back, Matt, your videos were fantastic and
    entertaining. I’ve learned a lot about pens and ink. Even though I said
    that I liked the old intro better than the new one (it was an honest
    opinion), and you don’t give a flying fuck about that, I really hope you come back, your great videos are very missed. Best wishes from Chile 🙂

  • José Ignacio Silva

    I hope that you come back, Matt, your videos were fantastic and
    entertaining. I’ve learned a lot about pens and ink. Even though I said
    that I liked the old intro better than the new one (it was an honest
    opinion, not a hate one),
    and you don’t give a flying fuck about that, I really hope you come
    back, your great videos are very missed. Best wishes from Chile 🙂

  • H.Ekaphob

    Im your fan from Thailand and i started to use fountain pen because of your video on youtube and I wish you be back and give us enjoying time for your new review.

    Thanks,
    Regards,

    H.Ekaphob

  • Ty

    You’re reviews are fantastic. I hope you enjoy your brake but I also hope you come back. Don’t let the trolls out way all of us who love your content ^_^

  • Richard Newman

    Thank you Matt for providing your video reviews and all the very hard work, time, and money you put into them. I learned a lot. I am subscribed to your Youtube channel, so I’ll be happy when a new one pops up in the future. All the best to you!

  • Joe Ferrara

    I am sorry to see you go. I have enjoyed your reviews and especially the fact that you were will to actually not like a pen and say why. You were honest and fair and even when you didn’t like a pen it was your own preference. I am sorry that all the talentless, cowardly “bullies” have nothing productive in there live and need to get there self esteem by putting others down. I also have to be honest, I was always a little jealous and wondered how you could afford so many great but expensive pens. I thought maybe you were a lottery winner. It’s definitely not worth getting into debt over something like this and I am sorry itvgotbaway from you. I think the onkynhing keeping me from being inthe same position is I am afraid of my wife and what she might do to me. Fear is my motivator :). You will be sorely missed by me and many others. I will keep subscribed to you YouTube channel just in case you change your mind. Miss you alread :(.
    Joe

  • Stacy

    Matt, I thank you for your delightful, informative and well produced videos. I wish you the very best during your rest and recalibration period. I imagine that your enthusiasm, creativity and joie de vivre will be restored and serve your chosen future endeavors.

  • Kai S

    Matt, your videos are incredibly well produced and they really showcase how attentive and dedicated a person you are. But fountain pens are supposed to be fun, not an obligation. I hope during you hiatus you will get to enjoy the hobby and its soothing effect. All the very best and thank you for your wonderful contribution to this community!

  • Ken Crooker

    I’ve heard many a story of YouTube comments ruining the experience of content providers who just want to share their passions with the world. People can be real jerks. It’s hard to not let it get to you. So I understand your position and feelings. For the record, I really appreciated your videos. I don’t feel that you were ripping off anyone. How many different ways can you review a pen??? I thought your reviews were honest and informative. And the work you put into your videos was quite apparent. The video quality, lighting, and audio were always fantastic.

    Take some time off to recuperate. If you come back to publishing reviews, I’ll be here to watch and enjoy. If not, I’ll still appreciate the content you provided. Above all else, take care of yourself!

  • HD from TX

    Just sending some support your way ol’ mate; there will always be the pitiful few to rain on your parade, I hope the break will help you clear your mind so you can come back better than ever before. We will be here when you do so; best of luck!

  • Austin Malone

    I want to make a public apology. I believe I made the comment about the introduction. I in no way meant to cause you any kind of distress and appreciate all the hard work you have put in to these videos, and you are my favorite reviewer. I feel terrible for causing your anguish.

    • Thanks for standing up. It makes a difference.

      • Austin Malone

        Thank YOU; I guess I’m just a little too dry. I need to work on softening my speech.

  • Julia Littleton

    Matt, I’ve been a fan for months, and until I viewed SBRE Brown’s “Kind Words” video, I was puzzled about why no new pen videos were showing up in your feed. I’m sorry to hear you’ve had some negative experiences! I’ve dropped maybe two YouTube comments (both positive).

    Since I’m a person with a very limited fountain pen budget, I’ve gravitated to the videos about more affordable pens. If you continue doing videos in the future, I hope you’ll remember that there are people out here who appreciate hearing someone’s opinion on inexpensive pens and ink. Your videos on the Indian-made pens, in particular, were a good guide for my choices (I had considered getting a Dilli, but decided to buy a vintage flex pen at a pen show instead — I adore my little vintage Packard!).

    But I’ve also been entertained by the other videos. Your take on pens is interesting to me because you express strong opinions, and it’s useful for me to take them into account as I figure out what kinds of pens appeal to me. Your taste isn’t the same as mine (particularly because I have smaller hands), but at least you offered a benchmark. I was glad to hear that someone else besides me didn’t care for the Lamy Safari’s design, and I like to hear you wax rhapsodic about a pen you truly find beautiful.

    And as SBRE mentioned, your production values are stunning. You’ve gone to great lengths to make the visual and aural experience the best it can be. And clearly, you have a green thumb with those houseplants.

    I hope to see more from you on YouTube in the future, whether it concerns fountain pens or your next big plunge into a new area of interest. Don’t listen to the trolls. You’re a fascinating guy with an engaging smile and a beautiful singing voice, and that bare dome of yours suits you. Best of luck!

    Julia

  • Robert Peluse

    Hello Matt,

    I have discovered a few of
    your reviews and even some of your original songs. Not only are you good
    at reviewing and not only are you a talented musician, but I can see
    that you take very seriously the production of your videos. The lighting
    and sound on your videos are great, and the images are crisp and clear.
    Your effort has not gone unnoticed, and I want to make it clear that I,
    among many, many people, appreciate the work you do. Please continue to
    make fountain pen reviews, as they are valuable resources for
    prospective buyers. They are also enjoyable to watch for people who want
    to experience them vicariously.

    Like I said,
    please keep making videos. However, I don’t demand that you overwork
    yourself, since you are only one person, and your time is valuable. I
    understand that you do this for the benefit and pleasure of others and
    not for pay. I look forward to your forthcoming videos. Thank you for
    your time and your presence.

    Sincerely,

    Robert

  • Tuzand

    Hello Matt,
    I like your videos very much. I hope that you will be back with new videos. Regards from Poland. 🙂

  • Jack Mars

    Its such a shame as I have only just found your channel and I really loved your videos, the quality was superb, I’ll miss them. Its unfortunate that there are so many nasty people willing to waist time posting those things. Sometimes a break is very necessary :).

  • Joel

    You make awesome videos and I appreciate the effort that you put into making all the videos. Hope you will be able to pay back all the credit card bills, you can do it 🙂

  • Harvey

    I will miss your new reviews but I respect your decision to put things in order. Best regards.

  • chad vandyke

    Enjoy the time off, even though several of us will miss your reviews. I deffinietly dont always agree with your points about some pens but i enjoy hearing a diffrent perspective and hope you decide to come back soon!

  • Taike

    Thanks for your great body of work. It’ll live on and hopefully bring you to the role you want to play in the fp community. I hope your favorite pens are always the ones you have inked. All the best to you!

  • Steve in Ohio

    Matt, Watched your videos always – admittedly after SBRE Brown’s – very much looking forward to them with as much anticipation. Your reviews and presentations influenced decisions I made about pens because you provided information and images second only to brick and mortar store visits (e.g. I bought a Faber Castell Ambition due to your video and glad I did). The quality of your production and content is in my humble and inexperienced opinion outstanding. Thank you for your work. IT IS APPRECIATED. Your need for a break due to the intensity involved is understood. I for one hope you continue down the road – for what you have done heretofore was a great gift – thanks.

  • Dale Snow

    Sorry to hear about your decision. Honesty never goes out of style so if/when you return you will always have an audience.

  • Chathura

    Hi Matt, your review of the Lamy 2000 was one of the references which lead me to buy the pen, and for that I’m very grateful to you.
    Thanks!

  • Heather

    Good for you. I will miss your videos but taking control of your life is much more important than Youtube and pens and ink and paper. Best of luck!

  • Liyin Yeo

    Matt, I enjoyed your pen reviews on YouTube. Come back soon.

  • Derick Solano Veitia

    I am really sorry to read about this. I really enjoyed the videos and input you gave to fountain pens. I started to wonder why there were no new videos in my subscribed list from you, and worried a little bit. But now I see why, and you have to think about you first than any other thing. You as a person and mental health is more important than any of us fans. However, as a fan from your blogs and videos I must say, keep strong, and do what you love. Dont feel obligated because people demand anything, do it because you like doing it. I really appreciate all the hours and money you spent for us, and I hope some day I see you again with a fountain pen in your hands.
    And for all those stupid people that judge and comment insignificant words that dont mean a thing, dont give them any importance in your life….F*#!.ck em!
    You are a brilliant person and I really thank you for you honest and truthfull reviews!
    (From Venezuela)

  • M.Angeles

    Hi Matt! I enjoyed so much your videos that I really shame if you stop it. I watched all of them and I always loved them. Please, don´t hear stupid pleople and continue with your great contribution to the fountain pen comunity. I´m sure a lot of people like me will be very happy if you do it.

  • Fernando Rodríguez

    Hi Matt,

    I’m really sorry to see you go. I loved your channel and the quality of your videos was amazing. If you need to leave because you want to concentrate on something else, stop spending or anything like that, by all means, do it!

    However, don’t do it because of the horde of jerks that hide behind a veil of anonymity on the net. The jerks are loud, but they aren’t the majority. We subscribed to your channel because of its value and because we liked it. Don’t let the bottom-feeding morons make you forget that.

    Best of luck and if you’re ever ready, come back. We, your real fans, will be waiting. 🙂

  • AliGT

    Hey Matt,

    Am a fountain pen user and accumulator, saw many of your reviews to get your opinion, which I valued, on pens I have and use and on new purchases.

    Thank you for your reviews and the work you put into them.
    I hope your break is not too long and we will see you back doing review.

    Below is a Quote that you had in one of your writing samples that stayed with me:

    “It is the mark of an educated mind to be able to entertain a thought without accepting it”
    Aritstotle

  • Ted

    Peace, Matt. And health. Take care.

  • michele harvey

    Hi Matt,
    I’ve been an appreciative reader, listener and admirer for quite some time now.
    I’m sorry to hear of your struggle with trolls and their caustic remarks.
    On this beach called life, there are sand castle builders and there are sand castle kickers.
    Everyone is a critic. (All creatives know this. It is indeed part of putting yourself out there.)
    Those that can’t (create), criticize.
    Rude and unnecessary remarks, say far more about the insecurity, small mindedness and unhappiness of the person making those remarks than the subject of them. Do not pay them any mind or take them to heart. The people and viewers that count are the ones that appreciate and support your efforts, publicly as well as privately.
    I do hope you’ll reconsider. Please know you will be very much missed. The fountain pen is a small world, one which will most certainly be smaller without you…

  • Stacy

    Matt, Thanks for your excellent videos : well produced, informative and charming. I wish you the very best with your rest and recalibration project. May your enthusiasm and joie de vivre as well as your finances rebound accordingly. All best with your future adventures!

  • Bobo Jones

    Nobody can please everybody, and as a presenter, you are subject to criticism. But be well assured that the overwhelming majority of your viewers are supportive and want to know your thoughts. As a Disabled Veteran I don’t have time or the energy for negativity in my life. I would encourage you to don’t let the negative commentators consume you. Five will get you Ten … they don’t even own a fountain pen. I would press upon you to come back … in moderation at the least. But don’t let those bad apples win.

  • Ammar Kashif

    Matt, I am so sorry to here you’ve stopped doing your reviews. Any person should know how much hard work you put in! You record beautifully, provide a crisp writing sample and also give very useful content! Please, you will find idiots everywhere, so don’t listen to them if they comment on your videos. You are doing the right thing, and are also helping others when uploading these videos. Hope to see you soon!

  • Richard Shipe

    Ah, geez. : /
    I wish the best of luck to you!

  • Dimitris

    Hi Matt! I’m a fan of yours and i have seen almost all your videos. You are doing a great, high quality job and you’ll be missed if you decide to stop reviewing pens. If you do stop, do it for your own reasons (time, money etc) but not for those rude commenters. I totally agree with S.Brown. Take a break, a short or a long one and then decide. I wish you all the best.
    Dimitris, Greece

  • Winnie Dolderer

    Matt: I have enjoyed your videos and your blog. Do what is best for you, but know that so many do enjoy what you do. Ignore the haters, as they are just a misery. There are so many more positive people to there. As a blogger, I have had to find the right balance for me. I now post less often, and don’t participate in as many things as I once did. But I am enjoying it, so I hope you can find the best balance for you. All the best!

  • Bill G

    I just thought I’d say I really liked your videos and enjoyed each one. I have only recently discovered them. Your life and family always is a higher priority. But if you ever decide to re-commence your videos on fountain pens, there are always good people interested to hear what you have to say.

  • C. Watkins

    I for one really enjoyed your videos on Youtube. The production value was fantastic and the reviews themselves are very informative. Sadly the internet has given people a voice and a lot of them can do nothing more than trash talk on it and make people feel bad. You sir are very good at what you do and I hope to see you back in the near future. Keep your head held high and to hell with the opinions of those that bring negativity to something that is meant to be informative and entertaining.

  • Bill

    From your post, its obvious that you have made the right decision for you. Walk away and do some things you enjoy.

  • Dave Taylor

    Sadly, those of us with positive or constructive comments often keep them to ourselves. Always enjoyed your video reviews and opinion. I hope to see more from you soon.

  • Ruediger

    Hi Matt. I enjoyed your videos a lot, and appreciate the effort you put into it. Though I understand your reasons, I hope you will be back some time in the future. All the best!

  • Eva Talbott

    So sorry you had such a negative experience on YouTube. Bright wishes for you to regain balance in your life.

  • Chintan

    This is for Matt. Negativity is
    everywhere brother. It comes only when you reach a certain higher level
    also called “Fame”. Do not bother about it, see the sunny side. The
    fountain pen community is with you! In whatever work you are doing. I
    read your blog and i support you in your effort to get a perspective
    about doing the FP reviews. But i hope to see you soon! Take care!

  • Ron

    Hi Matt, I’ve watched most of your videos and have to say I’ve enjoyed them all. They are of an exceptional quality and I’m not surprised they took a considerable amount of effort to create. My opinion, for what it’s worth, is if the fun has gone then it’s time to take a well earned rest. You owe us nothing and I thank you for the reviews you have posted. However, I sincerely hope you back soon. But please, please don’t feel obligated, this is something you should do only if it’s what you want to do and you enjoy doing it. Finally, I know it’s easier said than done but just ignore the offensive idiots out there and don’t let them get you down.

  • lesslighter

    just a tip if you think pens are eating up your budget I would say do what on some cases Stephen brown does borrow pens and then give an honest video review and I think you did that on your Lamy 2000 not sure on the Safari line… if your ever still intent on coming back but in the end sometimes I find it we need the time to reflect and stop on what we really like doing, something that I don’t see myself doing on how to ever fix my broken life… as for ink samples… beg? posting will be an issue but I think the community will be there for you

  • Thaiwan

    Matt, as many others I was wondering until I came by the notice of SBE… I’ve every now and then checked out your vids and enjoyed them. The passion and effort that must have went into it I admired. Now that you notice for yourself it is consuming too much of your life personally and financially you’re the one to decide to draw the line. The trolling that happened…it’s certainly not motivating but realize it comes from those lacking the capacity, creativity and guts to do what you did. I wonder why they waste their time on it….it must some sort of envy, and in the end their own stupidity. I wish you fix your personal issues before doing anything else and then decide how you move one. All the best and with some good hopes we see you again.

  • Myrta Harris

    Thank you for all of your videos and articles. Though I am a new subbie. I have watched most of your videos. Between you, SBREBrown & Goulet Pens, you have been the inspiration for returning to fountain pen usage. I have recently even introduced my 6 year old grand daughter to fountain pens. Your review of the Tomoe River paper notepad gave birth to my latest gratitude journal.

    Please don’t let a bunch of idiots on the internet drive you away. Remember the great words of Cleopatra…”I will not be triumphed over”!

    God bless you and your work sir.

  • john blackburn

    hi matt,

    this note is to just say how much it meant(s) to find one of your videos during/after a weekend… it was like a letter from a dear friend… it meant a lot… when you took a hiatus, the thought was that you were on vacation… it took stephen brown’s video to point out what was really happening…

    you mean a lot to a a lot of people, and the hope is that you will find a way to manage your time and money to continue the “pen habit”… it could be once a month or two and be important…

    your reviews were helpful and intelligent… that they were critical at times of the pens you used was a great contribution to honesty in the field… that you were able to do this at the early part of your experience with pens gave confidence to others… that you produced high quality videos was something beyond what one normally sees…

    as to those who are negative, especially those who provide ad hominem remarks, there was once a great criminal lawyer who would receive these comments from citizens who would call his office, and, one day while working for him i observed him received such a call from a lady who called to complain about his taking an unpopular case, and his reply was simply to say to her, “maam, every night before i go to sleep i pray and thank god that there are not many people like you on this earth”…

    when you do come back and take away the comments portion of the videos, the hope is that there will be some way for those who would like to communicate positive thoughts (and maybe constructive criticism) to thank you personally for the good work that you do…

    thanks for all you have done already,

    john blackburn

    p.s. a woman i know thinks bald men are sexy… am personally waiting for that day to arrive…

  • Henrik

    I just want to say that I have watched a lot of your videos and really really liked them! Thanks and I wish you all the best. / Henrik

  • That’s sad…
    I hope you’ll reconsider in the next few months.
    Thanks for the videos!

  • Ximo

    Matt, thank you for your videos. I’ve enjoyed them a lot and I appreciate the fantastic work you have done. I wish the best for you. Greetings from Spain.

  • Doug

    Matt, I enjoy your videos – a lot. You’re popular for all good reasons. Please keep them coming. Trolls will always be with us. Please do your best to ignore them. We need you to be with us!!

  • Gary Schafer

    I wish you nothing but the best. I can completely relate to your position. Many years ago I ran a popular computer hardware site and trying to balance that with a full time job became too much for me. I had to walk away. People have no idea the time it takes to do reviews well and up to a personal standard you feel comfortable with. It has to be fun. If it’s not fun and something you can comfortably fit into your life and financial obligations, it’s not something that can continue. It’s a tough decision to make and you have my respect for understanding it is affecting your life in a negative way. Thank you for your efforts and best wishes in the future.

  • Andrea

    Hi Matt, your videos were great, the best I have ever seen and I have purchased pens based on your recommendations. I hope to see your videos again.

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  • Jia Jun

    hello Matt,
    In this modern age people are getting bored of life and just wanted to show off knowledge about some other stuff.. so they commented unnecessarily.. all the want is to get attention from the Netizens and when they comment, they did not realize how hurtful it is and I feel that you should not take it so seriously.. I believe there is so much more people like me who love your reviews! your review of the vintage pen even inspired me to get a vintage pen which I ordered on that night after watching your videos!.. It is all about the audience… people who love it will be delighted but forgotten to clap for the performer.. have a rest! hoping to see your video soon!

  • fh1410

    It´s really a shame that people are so full of hate. Thanks for the nice review you have made.
    Hopefully you at sometime return with videos.

  • Sach

    Hi Matt

    Your videos will be missed sorely my friend!

    I watched numerous videos of yours and always admired how meticulously presented they were. When I came to realise that you had only come into the hobby in the last year or so, I was all the more impressed how much time and effort you had dedicated, for the benefit of the fountain pen community.

    Most of all though it was about being able to enjoy someone else’s journey. I looked forward to seeing your journey through something that I too loved, and seeing where that journey might take you. I’ve been using FPs all my life, but seeing that journey for someone new to the interest, and with the attention you paid was very precious, and quite unique on YouTube!

    Hobbies and interests should be about enriching ones life, and if I ever do post anything myself, I’ll be sure to switch off the comments as well…

  • Denise Rogers

    Oh, Matt, I’m so sorry. I love your videos and appreciate the work you put into them. But I do understand needing balance in your life (I take a break from the message boards precisely because they tend to encourage me to buy pens I do not need, cannot afford, and will hardly have the chance to use if I don’t stop). And are far as the comments sections of sites, I cannot agree with you more. I never dive into those anymore. Best wishes to you (and do continue to write me).

  • Giobatta

    Hi Matt, I follow silently your blog/videos. I really appreciate your work hope to see you again soon.
    I also understand your need to take a break and I wish you all the best for your life 🙂
    Guido (Italy)

  • Steve Ward

    Hi Matt. I have never commented on anything before. I really appreciate all you have done for me and the fountain pen community. I understand your need to back away. I have just started in the hobby and already spent too much money. The trolls are cowards and they are meaningless. I wish that I had the balls to review pens but I don’t. I have a few of my own opinions but it takes a lot of time and dedication to do a good review justice. You have done and awesome job Matt. Be proud of what you have done and I hope to see you again soon.

  • Twatwaffles… I lost it at twatwaffles.

    My friend, you have become a victim of the internet, and that breaks my heart. I’m not calling you a “victim” in the sense that you’re weak or anything, but basically, you’ve become quite the spotlight (one of my favorite people to watch on YouTube, hairless or not) and as such, people have decided to attack you for it.

    I do hope that you will return to the FP world and I hope that you’ll drop by the forums from time-to-time to let us know how you’re doing.

    Screw the naysayers. You’ve worked extremely hard for no money and people shit on that? Dude… You’ve got every right to take this hiatus or permanent vacation, like Forrest Gump’s dad, for instance, except you haven’t died. But then again, I don’t know that he was actually dead either… just gone. Did they ever say in the movie if he was actually dead or not? I digress… I do hope that you’ll come back.

    Kindest regards from the still-too-hot-for-October-South,
    Matthew

  • Glenn Higley

    Sorry to hear it, Matt but I understand your reasons. I will miss your YT pen reviews. I hope that you’ll make a most welcome return when/if it suits you. All the best, Glenn.

  • Mia

    This bit is brilliant: ‘asinine ravings of a gaggle of idiotic twatwaffles’. I agree whole whole-heartedly, if people don’t like something they should go find a channel they do like. I for one loved your reviews, especially your ink ones. I don’t have very fast internet and I love the fact that you had such a big range of pictures available. Glad you decided to make a season 🙂

  • Uncle Bud

    I subscribed to your youtube channel almost instantly.. You are a very good reviewer and from what I can tell a really nice guy. I appreciate that you need a break, a lot if people before you have struggled with the fuckwits that populate youtube and the like. Your health and well being are most important, and when you are ready I’ll be there to listen again. If there is anything I can do to help, just email me and I’ll do my best.

    Take care of yourself and thank you SO much for the existing videos.

    All the trolls out there, FUCK OFF YOU TWATS!

  • kj

    Your videos are really interesting and high quality. I hope you will straight out things soon. Greetings and best wishes from Hungary.

  • Shankar

    Hey,
    I liked your work. It’s sad that this had to end. I feel ashamed of those people. Hope you return soon 🙂

  • Flounder

    First off, I would make a point of watching your channel when a fresh review came out, even when (nigh on 95% of the time) I knew I couldn’t afford the pen being reviewed, or just didn’t feel in the mood for acquisition. That’s good reviewing! The draw was seeing you, reviewing away so personably – not the pen itself I would never buy, being reviewed.

    Reading how much stress & sacrifice went into making the reviews so excellent, I’m glad you’re making changes and understand the reasoning behind them.

    BTW before you let slip that you do audiobooks, I used to hear your
    modulated expositions & think, “wow, this guy should do radio or
    something”!

    Never look back!

  • The Pen Pixie

    Amen, dude. Amen.

  • Carlos Quiñones

    Thank you for your work! I really enjoy your honesty on your reviews… Do the things that makes you happy and forget about the negative comments…

  • “I hate comment sections on the internet more than I hate mayonnaise. And I HATE mayonnaise.”

    Yes, I completely agree. I’m sorry to hear this. Just want you to know that I enjoy your articulate manner of reviewing. I’m even saving up for a Franklin Christoph because of one. 🙂 Best wishes.

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  • Bruce Sinn-Brown

    I’ve always enjoyed your videos and the opinions you have on pens. I am thoroughly impressed on the amount of time and effort that you put into your videos, because it really shows through with high quality.

    Being a fellow pen nerd, it warms my heart seeing bloggers and video channels from people who share my love for fine writing instruments, because lets be honest, its not the most common hobby to enjoy. But it’s wonderful to hear from those who love it too, and to hear their opinions.

    You’ve already responded in saying you’ll be back by the time I wrote this, but I’m very glad to hear it, as I hold your blog and channel in high regard with others who do the same.

    Keep on writing on, ignore those negative comments, and do what you love, because there are certainly those of us who love your work.

    With very much sincerity,

    -Bruce

  • Edwin Yau

    I recently started the fountain pen hobby, and your insights have been wonderful. I found your videos professional and educational. You’ve got class and I look forward to more great things to come from you.
    Please know you made a real difference and will continue to do so.

  • Coltar

    You should definitely put your quality of life before anything else. You shouldn’t feel that you’re under any obligation to churn out video after video if you’re not enjoying it. Take care of yourself first and foremost, hobbies and videos can come after.

  • roger

    I honestly hadn’t a clue of your problems, maybe this is the reason why i have never commented one of your videos showing my support. I liked them, sometimes I gave a thumb up, but that wasn’t enough.
    Maybe this is the occasion to tell you that they are among my favourites concerning fountain pens; you have a unique, polite and relaxing style i really enjoyed.
    I hope you’ll solve your problems 🙂
    cheers from Italy

  • Svalan

    Can’t we raise funds for Matt so he can continue?

  • Kenneth Hershberger

    I think for your own mental health you had few choices. One would have been to find some sponsor(s) and get into the pen/paper/ink reviewing game full time. In another life, I have an interest in firearms. One of my favorite firearms YouTubers is Hickok45 — and he has gone from a casual uploader/reviewer to doing it full-time, I believe, quitting his “real life” profession as a school teacher. But finding sponsors in your field of expertise might not be easy, so this option probably wasn’t practical for you.

    Whatever your ultimate decision is, I hope you will make at least occasional videos to give us your take on what’s out there for us pen collectors. There’s plenty of room on YouTube for you, Brian Goulet, SRBE Brown and his lady, and the multitude of other makers of pen-related videos. I’d rather have some expert reviews to consider before I spend any of MY money. I’m a retiree and while I have a comfortable income, I don’t want to spend too much of it on any of my hobbies (pens, watches, and guns). I have bought a couple of pens based on your videos, the latest being a Franklin-Christoph Model 19 with the Masuyama nib. I found it to be just like you described it.

  • mikey

    Some people are assholes – we all know this but for every one of those Matt there are many, many who support you and understand what you are doing and applaud it! You are the best! PS If you decide to give up doing the videos just do it for your own good reasons not because of the assholes who really don’t matter in the long run.

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